The Countdown can stop...nothing has been done

First, I want to send my love to Emily and Cecilia who are now together! Second, to Kim and Katelyn who will be together in mere weeks. You are so blessed and your journey to motherhood is here!!! Congratulations to little Hayden that was born to one of the dearest friends I have. Sending love to my Aunt Mary Katherine who is in the hospital and has a broken femur and love to my grandma who is battling pneumonia in her nineties. I wish I could be thankful for my health at this minute, and I will try to be after this post.

My attorney is missing in action. She has had our file with the corrected documents for what appears to be weeks, but she has yet to turn them back into the Mixco office. If they do not make it to Mixco, they cannot move forward for the 15 day countdown from Guatemala City. And we sit and wait. My agency and their two staff members are running back and forth all over Guatemala trying to find my papers. I cannot even call in a favor if my documents are not returned. I feel our papers are being held for ransom of sorts.

So, I cried today, in the first time in many months. There is nothing I can do anymore and no way I can get my attorney to care what is happening. So, in my best Spanish and help with google translate, I sent her my very first e-mail. I begged her (YES, BEGGED) her to bring my daughter home to us. I know the demands on her are tough and I would do whatever to help her. I don't know what she wants from me.

The demands on us are tough, too. We are both self-employed, trying to keep our employees and clients happy. We are working a lot of overtime and having a lot of trouble concentrating some days - losing sleep - feeling tired and worn out....and all I think about is her.

I love her. I need her. I miss her....I will do ANYTHING in this world to protect her. Yet, I cannot do it anymore when she is so far away.